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Point Of No Return
May. 30th, 2003 12:51 pmWell, today was Movie Day. This is when the graduating class has their demo reel/final projects shown. Mine, of course, wasn't there. It was a little sad, but at least this way in two months' time, I'll have a better final project that will be worthy of my demo reel.
Last night we had a dinner at The Melting Pot. A little expensive, but it was worth spending the evening with them. I'll be seeing some of them still -- some are doing internships for various teachers -- so it's not a total dissolution, but it's still a bit of a nostalgic thing.
Today and tomorrow are some time off, then Sunday morning I go in to annex one of the labs and takke it over. With the new settings I have which will result in a better, cleaner image, I'll be doing 8 minutes per frame, which means I have, approximately, ten days' worth of rendering. Fortunately, this is only on a single machine, so if I use many machines, it will go significantly faster.
Feeling a little adrift right now. Confused and a bit dazed. Not really sure why, it's probably uncertainty about the future, loneliness, and seeing 90% of my classmates head off to their thing. Regret, though not for coming to this school. Worry since almost (but not quite, fortunately) everyones' demo reels seemed to be better than mine.
Normally I am really not a big fan of Eminem. Rap just isn't my thing, soundtracks are more up my alley. (Hans Zimmer and Christopher Franke rule!) But there's one line from his song Lose Yourself that kind of is playing through my mind now. I came home pretty determined to make the most of these two months, as best as I can. I wonder how long I can keep that determination up this time.
Last night we had a dinner at The Melting Pot. A little expensive, but it was worth spending the evening with them. I'll be seeing some of them still -- some are doing internships for various teachers -- so it's not a total dissolution, but it's still a bit of a nostalgic thing.
Today and tomorrow are some time off, then Sunday morning I go in to annex one of the labs and takke it over. With the new settings I have which will result in a better, cleaner image, I'll be doing 8 minutes per frame, which means I have, approximately, ten days' worth of rendering. Fortunately, this is only on a single machine, so if I use many machines, it will go significantly faster.
Feeling a little adrift right now. Confused and a bit dazed. Not really sure why, it's probably uncertainty about the future, loneliness, and seeing 90% of my classmates head off to their thing. Regret, though not for coming to this school. Worry since almost (but not quite, fortunately) everyones' demo reels seemed to be better than mine.
Normally I am really not a big fan of Eminem. Rap just isn't my thing, soundtracks are more up my alley. (Hans Zimmer and Christopher Franke rule!) But there's one line from his song Lose Yourself that kind of is playing through my mind now. I came home pretty determined to make the most of these two months, as best as I can. I wonder how long I can keep that determination up this time.
You better lose youself in the music, the moment.
You want it? You better never let it go.
You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow.
This opportunity comes just once in a lifetime....
